she sits alone just waiting to go. how long 'til she feels the warmth of his strong hands. how long. i don't ever call. can't find the time. rationalize my stall each time. she marks the days just waiting to fly. how long 'til she feels the touch of his gaunt hands. how long. i'm always there in thoughts at least. assuage my guilt. still she is just so lonely. i am so tired i could die. sick of promises. no hope of golden years and lasting love. how long 'til my sweet old heart will break. how long must i be so lonely